today’s post is by Jennifer Kindle
Whispers behind the closed door proved the mess I thought I was in. My husband’s words are always full of wisdom. I’m not always thankful for his wise words in the moment but gratefulness does come once I’ve settled. Deb’s recent post on the beauty of marriage bubbled up in my heart a new love and appreciate for my own sweet, gentle man.
I held back tears and poured out my heart, but only in pieces, not the whole. The stubborn part of me didn’t want to throw my bare heart out in the open, the selfish part of me wanted to feel sorry for myself and find fault in everyone else, the wise part of me knew I just needed sweet fellowship with Jesus, but prideful me wouldn’t run into his arms. My flesh is rather ridiculous and I love that my husband trusts the Lord in my life enough to say just a handful of words, offer a gentle kiss, leave me hanging with them, and walk away.
In my pity party about life, people, relationships, to-do lists, overwhelming feelings, mountains too high to climb, impossible obstacles, even simple feats, I finally surrendered to the gentle nudging of Jesus saying, “Come to me, I will give you rest.” What he gave me was the same thing he had already taught me before. Why had I forgotten? What derailed my focus? Like Peter walking on the water, I took my eyes off of Jesus and gazed instead at the raging storms that encompassed me.
Apparently I’m a slow learner and need to be taught time and time again. I’m still in training, wise instruction is continually needed, so I will remember to make righteous choices, choices that honor my Lord.
I’m so thankful that he has kept nothing from me in this ridiculous moment of falling apart. I was able to run into his arms, hear his comforting words, be renewed in the hope of his promises and fall asleep in peace, waking to his mercies that are new for me every morning. The thing is, I am victorious when Christ lives through me. I am a conqueror of great feats when the Lord is my guide. I can accomplish the impossible when I simply ask the Lord to show me the path. He is so faithful to say, “Here is the path, now walk in it.”
The Lord is the strength of his people, he is the saving refuge of his anointed.
The impossible has a different name day to day. We all have diverse mountains to climb. We may stand feeling helpless at the bottom looking up at our to-do list, our mounds of laundry, full calendars, books calling to be read, character to be instilled, finances to be managed, relationships to be healed or …..insert your own mountain.
Take courage today.
One day at a time.
One action at a time.
One obedience at a time.
In my own family we say, “How do you eat an elephant?” Of course, one bite at a time. Life can pile on and overwhelm us so. Tomorrow always seems to creep in to today’s thoughts when they have no place there. The Lord provided for the Israelites with manna, which lasted only for the day. Believers have everything they need for life AND godliness. I play these words in my mind and the Lord has to gently scrape off the rough spots on that bare heart of mine I don’t like out in the open. He reminds me that my job description as a Jesus follower is just that…….follow Jesus.
“Okay, Lord. Where you go, I’ll go, lead me, I will follow. Where?”
“But where, Lord? What do you want me to do about this and that and tomorrow and next week, next year, on and on and on. I’m willing to be obedient but to what?” I must exhaust him, really.
Follow me. Follow me in this moment. Follow me today. Wait to hear me before you speak. Ask me before you act. Hear me before committing to that activity. Sit with me so I can show you how to pray. Be obedient moment by moment. Do not worry about tomorrow, I’ll guide you anew tomorrow. Worry about following me today.
The Lord comforted me in my desperate need to hear his voice and the following morning I purposed my day to follow him. I don’t have any new clarity on the things that overwhelmed my heart yesterday but I trust that they aren’t my concerns. He wants me to follow him today and how can I keep my eyes on him if I’m gazing at tomorrow or future anxieties? Once again, like Peter, I will sink.
We shouldn’t survive, we should thrive. The abundant life he desires for us to have is available when we follow him. Simply and wholeheartedly, just today, follow him. I can very easily get caught up in my plans and ministry opportunities and school schedules and every single time I do, I feel my eyes gazing and my feet sinking. When I purpose to hear God’s voice and ask him to show me the way, he gives me his vision, his creativity and his strength to walk in the path he puts before us that day.
I can still dream big because as I’m following him, he puts his dreams on my heart. I can still make plans because as I’m following him, he puts ideas into my heart. The difference is that I offer them all back to him. Take my dreams, Lord, and bring them to fruition but show me how to follow you today so you can get me there. Take this creative idea and plan Lord, that I trust is straight from your heart, and work out the details for me because I can’t take my eyes off of you and work on that. Here is my yes Lord, I will do that when you say to do it but until you bring it in front of me to act upon it, I will wait and keep following you today. I will follow today. I will choose righteousness today. I will obey today.
Will you obey today?